It’s been almost a year since I was last on here. Oops.
I’m not sure that I’m actually going to get back on here, but I thought I might as well post something today, seeing as it’s the end of the year and I haven’t posted in forever.
I also have to apologize to the blogs I follow- I haven’t been reading all of your posts. I’ve just been kind of busy and distracted this year, and not really in the mood to be on WordPress all the time. But I’ve still read some posts, when I’ve been checking my email and have had a moment to get updated on all of your lives. I wish I were more in the mood to stay up to date on here and post more, but I wasn’t. Overall I’ve been a bad blogger this year. Sorry.
This year has been crazy though.
I turned eighteen (as you saw in my last post, when I was freaking out about being an adult), graduated high school, got way better at playing the drums, started college, made new friends (and kept in touch with the old ones), voted in my first presidential election, wrote a NOVEL, got good grades in my first semester of college, came out to my closest friends… Overall 2016 has been a big year for me.
Not everything has been great, and I feel with the people who are glad 2016 is over because of all the terrible things that have happened this year. But I also want to remain positive and remember it as a happy year in my life. I think the biggest event was that I graduated from high school and started college. That was exciting and terrifying, but I did it! And I’m enjoying living away from home and studying new things well enough. I’m home for winter break right now though, and I must say, it’s SO nice to be back.
Other big things I want to remember and focus on… I voted, so that was cool. The election didn’t go the way I wanted it to, and I’m terrified for what the next four years will look like, but I have faith that it will all be okay.
In November, I participated in Nanowrimo– that’s “National Novel Writing Month.” It was SO hard, especially since I was taking four college classes with lots of homework at the same time, but I DID IT. I wrote a 50,000 word book. I had had a book idea floating around in my head and in my notes for a long time (maybe two years?), and I kept putting off really starting it and working on it. So I made myself do Nanowrimo, and FINALLY wrote my book. It’s really rough and not very good right now, but at least I have a draft written. I wrote something. 50,000 words of something. So I’m pretty proud of that. I want to go back and edit it and figure out what I can do to make the story stronger, but I don’t know when I’ll get to that or exactly how to approach doing so. It’s fine though. I’m just happy right now that I wrote a book. And I mean, it would be really cool to find a book agent or something, figure out how to get it published at some point (when it’s a lot better, not anytime soon). But anyways.. Yeah. I wrote a novel. We’ll see where it goes from here.
And then I also came out to my closest friends. And I guess now I’ll come out on here: I’m gay. I’ve been questioning the past two years or so, but earlier this year I finally became sure of it. I’m gay af. It’s been a complicated, confusing, frustrating couple of years. Anyways. I’m not out to my family yet, but I told my closest friends from high school, and my new friends at college know too. I’m kind of just not trying to hide it at school now (college), which is weird but exciting. So yeah. And my two closest (new) friends at school are also part of the LGBT community so that’s nice. I don’t feel as alone anymore.
I don’t really know what else to write… but since it’s New Year’s Eve, I’ll try to think of some of the things I obsessed about and appreciated in 2016.
Obsessions/Favorites of 2016:
- Kate Mckinnon. Always.
- Ghostbusters 2016 (sub-category of above)
- Lin-Manuel Miranda
- Ashland, OR
- Sara Bruner
- Rolling rings
- My nieces
- Theater nerds
- Roller coasters
- My pets
- Twin brothers
- The gay version of Oaklahoma!
- Young people (especially my best friend’s little sister and cousins)
- Heathers: The Musical
- Sara Bareilles and Anna Kendrick’s books
- Plaid/flannel (always)
- Harry Potter movies
- Emma Stone
- La La Land
- New friends
- Colleen Hoover
- The Benson hotel
- You Know Me Well [Nina LaCour, David Levithan]
I think overall I had a really great year. Sure, not everything was perfect, but I survived, and I’m looking forward to what comes next. I don’t really feel like making technical new year’s resolutions, but I do want to make a few life resolutions that I’ve been thinking about for a while.
- Exercise. Get in shape, get fit, don’t eat as much junk. Be healthy. [I’ve already sort of started this.]
- DO THINGS. Get out, explore, try new things, step outside my comfort zone. I’ve been bored with my life for too long. I need to get off my ass and do things, make my life more full and exciting.
- Meet new people! Put myself out there, make new friends, do things with these people. See how these relationships can blossom.
- Figure out what I’m passionate about and DO those things. Write more. Get involved in theater. Keep playing the drums, get better and try new things.
I think those are the main things I hope to achieve in my life soon. The main message is just get out and try new things.
Okay. I’ve run out of things to say at the moment. I don’t know if I’ll return here soon or not. But whatever happens, here’s to a great new year. Happy 2017.
Thanks for listening.